Venting

My Life has been turned upside down! I don’t know what to think or do. I’m completely numb on the inside. There is so much anger running threw me, not at you of course, But at other people. It makes me so sick to my stomach that people are acting like they had some great friendship/relationship with you, that you & I and your family & real friends know to not be true. It’s a smack in the face to those of us who truly  loved you, and valued your life and you as a person, like myself, your mother , your sisters, family members and your closes friends, that you shared your thoughts and feeling with. WE ALL KNOW THE TRUTH! I will never understand why they are trying to make this about them and not those who matter. I understand that maybe they are grieving too and wish they had that perfect friendship/relationship with you. But you ended those relationship a long time ago and you had your reasons for doing so, I know why you did and your family & real friends knew why you did. You were never the type of person to hold a grudge but you didn’t tolerate being treated like crap over and over again and cut all ties with these people and only dealt with some of them because you had no choice. I am trying my best to do things the way you would have and would want me to, but you knew me better than anyone so you know how hard this is for me to sit back read this BS and keep my mouth shut! This is the only way I know that I can let it out without getting nasty with people. So here it is..Get a life, move on, stop trying to make My Husbands death out to be an attention getter for yourself, and come to terms with the facts , which are… since your obviously in denial about your relationship with him, which was none, if anything it was because he had no choice but to keep you people in his life.

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